As the New Year approaches I keep finding myself thinking about the past year and even the past few years in comparison to how I want 2017 to play out. I do some of my best thinking while driving (without kids I might add) and on my home from work last night and my way to work this morning I had a comparison going on in my head. I look back over the major changes of 2016 and I can’t help but feel excited for what 2017 has in store for my family. In 2016 I chose to close the doors on things I never dreamed I would and I found many open doors waiting for me.
In 2017 I am looking for some sort of financial freedom and I also want to work on what I call let go and let it be. In the past I have taken part in picking a word for the year but this year I didn’t want to be put into a box. I want this year to be about family and making memories. I want to let go of my ideas of how things should be or how they should look. I want my family and I to soak up all of the time we can together even if that involves messy floors or fingerprinted walls. I want to hold my babies, snuggle with them and embrace every second I can with them. They are growing too fast and the past few weeks I have reflected on how busy I have kept myself. In the blink of an eye I was so focused on other things I let time go by that I won’t get back.
I have taken on too much for far too long and now after returning to work outside the home in June I finally said goodbye to my online shop this month. It was hard. I cried. Starting and running a business is like another little baby – it holds a place in your heart that becomes so special. You watch the baby business grow, you feed it and you pour more time into it than you even realize. The income my shop was bringing in was amazing but it got to the point where it wasn’t worth the stress. I was doing shop work before my day job, on my lunch break and after my day job. I was leaving little time for my family and at the end of the day my house was a wreck, everything I did besides for work felt half ass and I was exhausted. I tried bringing on some help which did take some of the stress off but I still couldn’t keep up. I knew the writing was on the walls.
Here is something else I want for 2017. I want to put out what I want back from the world. I want to teach my kids more of this. Just this morning I remembered that my husband and I had both signed up for family dental in 2017 and we decided to cancel his. I know nothing like the last minute right!? His human resources told him flat out no. That is when the momma in my comes out and I told him to give me their number. I had to give him his six digit ID to talk to someone. To them we are only numbers. They were rude and told me I would have to fax in information and blah blah blah they might not get it processed today. Since it is the last business day of the month we would be charged for January and wouldn’t receive the money back. $60 is $60 and I don’t want to pay it for nothing. I got off the phone with them and called my human resources lady. She knows me by name, she has met me in person twice, last time she was in my office (she works out of another office a few hours away) she checked in on me! She told me if she needed to she could write them a letter and have it to them this afternoon. I want to be like her in 2017. I want to put out good vibes and do all I can to help people and fingers crossed those vibes come right back to me. I don’t want to be a number to anyone. I want to receive and give honest to goodness kindness and caring. I want my kids to know that the attitude they put out is the one they will most often get back.
I don’t think these things are too out of reach for 2017. I want to save up some money. We are really hoping to buy our first house this year. I am going to turn 30 this year and a goal I have had since I was in my early 20s was to own a house by 30. I have six months left to make the goal reality. Buying a house would save us a lot in the long run because we have been paying high rents for years. We have been working hard to fix the credit we ruined and let go when we were young and dumb. I got my very first credit card this past fall and have been using it exactly like I am supposed to. Financial freedom brings me so much happiness. I look back to a few years ago when I would ask to borrow money for bills until the next paycheck. It was this viscous circle. I would be lying if I said I didn’t come home to our electricity or water turned off a few times since I tried doing this whole work from home thing in 2012. We have grown, we have learned and we tried to do what was right. I think we are on the path to where we want to be now. If we can climb the mountain to homeownership this year I would be ecstatic. It doesn’t have to be big or beautiful. As a matter of fact I want small and quaint. I want a fixer upper to make our own. I want white walls and framed coloring pages our kids did on the walls. I want simple.
What does 2017 look like for you this year? I hope it brings financial freedom, happiness, letting go and letting it be. We can’t all have Pinterest worthy homes where everything is right where it belongs at any moment. There seems to be so much more pressure on moms lately to be a rockstar outside and inside the home. It has taken Mike and I years to finally see eye to eye on helping each other out with work, kids, the house and everything in between. I’ve got a good feeling about this year and I wish you all a Happy New Year that ends up bigger and better than the last!
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